heartbroken.by Keri Harris Kitchen on Tuesday, 21 December 2010 at 23:06 First of all, Thanks for all the prayers. We found out today that though one baby is perfectly healthy, the other baby does have anencephaly… which means that he or she will not be able to survive after birth. To say we are heartbroken is an understatement. I’m thankful we have a strong support system and I truly believe what scripture says about God working for the good in all things for those who love Him. We don’t understand and we know we’ve done everything we were supposed to do to have healthy babies… but thankfully, faith doesn’t require understanding. We just need some time.
From the time my husband Aaron and I have been a couple, our mothers joked about the redheaded twins we were going to have. In 2009, we decided that we were ready to start a family. We wanted a baby. We prayed for a baby. I quietly hoped for twins.
After almost a year of waiting and hoping, we saw the first faint line on a home pregnancy test on September 19th, 2010. It was so faint, Aaron asked me if I was sure there was a line there, and if I was sure it was positive. I said, “Yes. A line is a line!” Just to be sure (and further convince him), I repeated the test the next day, and there was no question. There was a definite line.
From that time, I was continually on edge, afraid something would happen with the pregnancy. Looking back, maybe it was God trying to prepare me for what was ahead. I knew from others how easily a miscarriage can happen. I even went in for blood work around 6 weeks, just to check HCG levels before our first ultrasound. My HCG levels were on the high end of normal.
October 27th finally came and we went for the first ultrasound. When we first saw Paxton on the screen, it was wonderful. We heard his beautiful heartbeat and we were amazed. Then my doctor asked me what my symptoms had been so far. I told him I was mostly just feeling some heartburn and a lot of fatigue. He asked if I’d been having headaches, and I said, “yeah, some.” Then he said, “Well, I’m about to give you a bigger headache… there are two.” The response was nearly involuntary when I asked, “Are you serious?!” Sure enough, tucked in behind a tiny, newly forming Paxton was our sweet little Carys. ….(click to read more)